Friday, 8 July 2011

Open the Door...

The Door is here.

The Door was over there. Now it's here.

I'm drunk, but... I don't feel like just hitting Enter and letting the errors slip through my fingers. I want to go back, fix it, make it "proper". Crossing the i's, and dotting the t's. The Door is here.

It's in my doorframe. I could leave through the front door... but I don't want to. There's a shadow out there. Maybe it's watching me.

Then it can watch me go. It's not moving. I don't care. Everything's alright. Everything's fine. Everything's bright.

Goodbye, friends. I shall open the Door, and I will see you on the other side.

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Aqua Vitae

the pain goes as long as I drink

I do't eidjk dirnking. But I haveb to. I nca o tproperly. So , Ii dirn. VMtuim into the toilet afterwards.


Still Sober

Feeling like crap.

My vision is blurring. I walk everywhere, and a putrid stench claws at my noise. Any food I eat turns to ashes in my mouth. My hands are wrought with blotches. My feet, covered in blisters. I can see the veins on my arms and my legs and my chest and my neck and everywhere so clet so irep.

... sorry. I keep feeling as if the straight line of my thoughts is falling into circles, and going round and round; wheels within wheels within wheels within wheels.

Like that.

I keep hearing this buzzing noise in my ears. Won't go away. Gonna take some headache tablets, make 'em go away.

Sobered Up

He was there. He offered me his hand. I took it. I blacked out.

I woke up in my apartment. The smell is rank. I can't stop throwing up. I found some blood in the last one. Not too sure what's happe- fuck.

There's stuff crawling in the vomit. Gonna need to get a bucket or something to clean this up. What a mess...

Wednesday, 6 July 2011


ho wowi that was a bt much ,rojb l,

Feeels greart, thisl , dunno wahy I didn;t di o before.

Someone;;  ajt my door. Shioiukdl ik sjiia helllo:?

Tuesday, 5 July 2011

nothing there

Oh, god, my arm hurts.

I'm on leave from work. There was nothing under my cast. I've amateurishly made a new one, but my healing will take a bit longer.


That reminds me. I tried some whisky today. It tastes good.


i feel it

Itching itching. My aarm's in a cast and there's something n there


it has to come off adnfjjsf fktu has to come off there's soemtjin in there